Epigraph
0| Prologue
1| Her First Love
2| Proposal
3| Grand Wedding
4| My Wedding Life
5| His First Love
6| They Don't Really Hate Each Other
7| He Wants To Do What
8| Pretending To Love Him Was Not That Hard
9| Road To Love
10| Too Close For Comfort
11| His Cute Nurse
12| He Is A Big Tease
13| He Cares Now When He Knows I Can't?
14| Silent Rejection Hurts Even More
15| My Little Dreams
16| His Feelings Are So Confusing
17| His Friendship Is All I Have
18| He Loves Cuddling?
19| I Can Never Dress Like A Girl
20| I Am What?
21| Embarassing And Awkward Situations
22| Date Plan Gone To Hell
23| Compromising Situations
24| Hot Arguments And Cool Answers
25| Some Wise Decisions
26| Jealous Arguments And Broken Hearts
27| When Fake Turned Into Something Much More Real
28| Dangerous Game
29| Heart Want What It Wants
30| Was Loving You A Better Idea
31| Reasons We Are Far Apart
32| Your Name
33| Hurt And Confort
34| Most Natural Thing To Do
35| Unexpected Encounters
36| Don't Move
37| You Think I'm A Man?
38| Old Friends Reunion
39| Mission Mia
40| I Hate You!
41| His Passion And Desire
42| Do You Love Me?
43| Some Old Secrets
44| Some Shocking Revealations
45| Dangerous Territory
46| Crazy Confessions
47| Love The One Who Loves You Back
48| You Can't Just Fall Out Of Love
49| You Can't Run Away From Your Past
50| It's Not Easy To Love Someone...Back
3| Grand Wedding
Day of marriage:

Emily Pov:

I was nervous. I should be. That's what normal brides feel. I was going to take a long step. A step which would change my life forever. My hands were sweating and I couldn't even walk on the ground because of this gown.

Yes. I was wearing a gown.

A wedding gown. My dream gown.

I always wanted to marry Edward, wanted him to propose me first and then I would say yes. All of this happened but I didn't know it could happen in such circumstances as well.

When I first realised my feelings for Edward, I was very cool unlike other girls who freak out. Beccause I know I would get over those feelings one day or another. But when those feelings turned into Love at my tender age of 20, I was devastated. On the top of it, he got himself a girlfriend before I could even spill something about it.

He fell in love. That's what he said to me. Okay, I said.

I guess things worked out for him cause when I met Lara, she was nothing like those bitches which I always read in novels. Instead, she was mannerable and lovely. The only one thing off about her was her silent nature. She didn't spoke more than two lines at once. I was actually surprised that how come a girl can't talk to another girl. I heard that it was impossible.

Edward was cool about her silent nature. He said she talked a lot to him.

Okay that burned. What did I even do to universe!!?

At least talk to me so I could decide whether to hate you or like you?

She never actually did anything wrong to me. She was okay with me and my friendship with Edward. I did like that part of her. Maybe she knew he would never fall in love with me.

I settled on liking her.

We went two months later with the plan that Edward broke up with Lara Because she cheated on him with some blonde and how he realised that he couldn't live his life without me as I had always been by his side. And so he proposed me.

As if that can ever be true.

Breaking the news of our marriage to Edward's parents was not easy. They actually suspected us. And that's why we had to act lovey-dovey around them, with Edward holding me by my waist and I, as a hanger, clung to his shoulder.Edward also had to peck on my cheeks to make them believe it offering them the reason that we can't kiss because of me being in cold.

That was horrible. No not cold. But my Reason.!

I always was a horrible liar.

I am surprised I managed to hide my feelings for like, fifteen years.
But there is a time for everything.
As for my mother, like any typical moms would do, she started sobbing.

Like real bad. I was terrified.

I thought she had gone berserk. Oh She didnt.

And then she started stating reasons as to why I never acted like a girl, always wearing baggy pants and all.
She really, like really, started stating in front of Edward's parents as well, that I never liked to wear skirts but only wore it to impress Edward.

He smirked. And That was so embarrassing . I wanted to dig hole in the ground and crawl Two meters deep into it.

But my father never doubted me. To my surprise, he just wished me luck and hugged me.

And then they started to talk like how we should have married a Long time ago, if it werent for Edward's stupidity to date Lara. I sensed Edward's fist clenched, so I grabbed his hand to assure him, smiling brightly at him.

My jaw was practically hanging by giving fake smiles all day. I didn't know love was that costly. I paid price for whole fifteen years for it and I guess some two years won't make a difference.

Two years. We decided to keep our Fake marriage for two years. Until we convince his parents that our marriage was not working as the way they wanted.

"Emily!!" Someone shouted.

"Mia!"I said, smile making its way in my face.

No matter what problem I am into, I can always be happy with my friends.

She hugged me tightly.

Mia Shane. She was my friend since highschool freshman. Though we have nothing in common, how did we become friends was still a miracle. But she understands me. And she is the only one who knows about my crush on Edward. And she was the only one who smacked me on my forehead real hard, after listening that I was going to get married to Edward, not in the way I wanted.

She lectured me whole week and even threatened to break our friendship if I continued but she knew I won't do that. I would never betray Edward. He is the only heart I have.

"You look so beautiful!" she said, admiring me and my gown.

"Have you heard of any girl looking ugly on their big day? It's all makeup Mia. You know me. I am not that much of a beauty!" I defended myself.

"Oh shut up before you get your forehead tainted red and blue!!" Mia said.

We looked at each other and laughed.

I never doubted she wouldn't come to my wedding.

In fact she was the only one I was waiting for. We chatted for few minutes and then.

"Mia! That's wrong. You coudn't just go and tell Victoria that I am gay,",entered Jake Anderson. So called playboy of our college. And so called crush of Mia.

Yeah you read that right. She had a crush on him like for seven years. And he, as dense as a tree, doesn't even know about it.Hell, even my parents know about it. How could he not know?

Only trees are allowed to be dense. Not humans.

And I have these three crazy friends for crying out loud.

There is Rose Montana as well. She is the quietest girl in our group if we note the sarcasm. She knows everything. Where the boy lives to how many girlfriends he used to have in past life, everything. Just ask her and like a waterfall, You would have your tank filled with information. I still dont know where does such connections for information come from, pertaining to the fact that she come from normal family. Not some K. C. UNDERCOVER, I suppose. Due to her job at New York, she was currently unavailable in my wedding, and I like the fact that all my friends have a nice future.

"I didn't actually say "gay" part. You just assumed it ",said Mia, rolling her eyes.

"You look beautiful,Emily. And how the hell would you define the part that "I used to sleep with Leo after my break ups"? That's filthy. You crossed the line. You questioned my sexuality!!" said Jake, gritting his teeth.

"We sleep together sometimes Jake. It doesn't make a difference. You know that's shit. I would never doubt your muscularity. Let it rest. Today is supposed to be my big day right?" I said.

"Lily, you always take her side. A time will come when actually I had to prove my gender to my future wife and that day I would climb off the cliff and in my suicide note I would write "all credits to Mia Shane"".He yelled.

We actually laughed hard at his comment. That was funny.

When actually it wasn't!!

"She is sorry Jake.!"

"No I am not!!"

"Oh yes, you will be !".

And the fight continued forever. I mean they can't go on a day without fighting and here they say that the other ruined their life. I can't imagine them without each other. When they fight, they barely can hold themselves for an hour without talking, let alone the whole day.

"Oh my Emily dear!! You look so beautiful. We are so proud of you. You made the right choice!!" My mom said trying not to cry.

Typical mom.

I actually felt bad for not telling her the truth.

Not because she would be sad.

But because she would bury both me and Edward alive.

Again typical mom.

"Hey honey. Woahh! You look so beautiful, my baby doll! See I told you he loves you. You just waited and there, he proposed you. I can't wait for the day mini Emily's and mini Edward's will be playing on my lap."he said, grinning.

I blushed at the thought of having babies with Edward. It wasn't that I never thought of it. I always wanted that. But now that People say it loud,it feels so embarrassing.

"I will go and prepare for the ceremony. Be ready to walk the aisle in ten minutes sweety", I nodded.

"Oh these nails. Mom why do I have to grow my nails? And my chest. I feel so suffocated. Why are they growing so much? I can't even walk properly in these heels. And this veil is not doing any much good to me",I cried out frustrated.

Yes. I was frustrated. I was nervous.

I had cold feet and I can't believe it.

Don't worry Emily, it's not like you are going to marry for real. This is fake.

But this will be the last time I wear my wedding gown. I was suddenly sad .

"Emily dear, it's good that you have ample chest. This way your marriage life will be happier. This veil is supposed to bring happiness. And as for nails-"

"Okay I get it. Please don't elaborate!",I said.

What does having ample chest have anything to do with my marriage life..?

I sighed.

"Dear.Are you ready? ",My father said.

I nodded.

And the door opened. Violins and soft music filled my ear.

There he was standing. His beauty on his full glory. His tuxedo doing all the good to make him edible. Edible? Seriously Emily. I smacked myself mentally.

His faint smile widened upon seeing me. His eyes glistened like a dew on leaves and our eyes remain locked until I reached him. For me, it was a life changing moment. It was happening. I was going to marry him. Like marry marry him. Like they do in movies. My father gave my hand to him. He held me and nodded at My father.

Priest talked about vows and how we all have gathered here to witness this grand wedding.

We looked into each other eyes,his hands sliding into mine, caressing them to calm my nervousness. I smiled at him,his own lips curling upwards.

"I, Edward Jones take, Emily willows,to be my lawfully wedded wife and vow to take care of her in sickness or in heatlh till death do us apart!"

I felt tears prickling My eyes unconsciously. I swallowed a lump,my throat sore from emotions.

"I, Emily willows take Edward Jones to be My lawfully wedded husband and vow to take care of him in sickness or In health, till death do us apart!"

Till death do us apart. Yes. I wish I could do that. If only you were to accept me.

"With the power bistwoed upon me by holy god, I now pronounce You two husband and wife. You may kiss the bride. "

Edward stared at me. I just blinked. I wasn't listening.

Oh crap. He had to kiss me. I panicked. We didn't think of that.

Before I could even faint, he lifted up my veil a little, his eyes widened slightly upon seeing me, which he recovered quickly, and kissed me faintly on the lips.

I was shocked. I didn't even get to respond.

He just took my first kiss ..in not so
good way.

Applausals filled the hall. Everyone shouted and cheered.

But I was still in daze. My cheeks and ears were flushed red. My fingers were all sweaty under the gloves. My lips slightly opened.

See that's why I remain outside 1 meter radius from him. Except for hugs which he inititaes first. I can't control myself or my feelings around him. This is bad. So bad..

What the hell did I get myself Into?

© Ritika Verma,
книга «For His Sake».
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