Lorraine
@Lorraine_
~QUOTE~ "Never trust anybody in life because all of them are becoming a traitor".-Lorraine
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Dive Through Darkness
I'd like you to feel my emotion, I want you to feel the way i show devotion, Then told me everything you see through me, I want to know if my soul is as dark as the empty sheets. The feeling of drowning under the ocean of sadness, Is like torturing yourself in the world not so blessed like kindness, Your scars turned into a wound, You always break now like a wood. Words now are turning into a weapon, Like knives, guns and such things as poison, It kills you physicaly but it also kills you mentally. You were suppose the burning flame and the light in your world, But somebody came in and crushed your soul, Youre now the blue and cold flame, You feel nothing but always see the blame. Loneliness was your friend, He served as your magical shed, But your already dead, Cause sadness waited until the end.
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Hiraeth
I'd only wish you to pray and stay, To not bring harm to me and to not go away, It hurts me whenever you told me im not the one, So i stepped back and told you im clearly done. Im sorry if i wasnt enough for you, Im sorry if i left you out in blue, But you don't know how much im still inlove with you, In every goodbye turns into i love you. I may not be the girl you dreamed of, But i may be the girl you used to think of, I am still the girl who always kisses your cheek, But now im the girl who has tears in her eyes and blink. The pain you've been given was already enough, But you didn't care so you let out a laugh, That made me think that i wasn't at the top, And i was right that's why i was completely numb. In every cold replies there was always a pain, That means im tired and drained, I let ou a sigh then it started to rain, Its the time we need to separate lanes.
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Cherophobic
Love was a wonderland, Love was a lie, Love was everything, Until everything started to die. In every sweet "goodmorning" turns into bitter"goodbye", I would laugh,scream and start to cry, Do i need to remind myself that past is past, But everytime i see your pictures i don't see love but lust. Im not mad because you used me, Im in pain because you set me free, My feelings for you werent over, But yours was totally over. So here i am standing in our room, Remembering the shattered pieces and loud thud boom, I wish you were, I want you to know i still love you dear.
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Nostalgic Love
Young love was always see as tragic, We youths just wanna interpret and not being so dramatic, Now im going to tell you the story of mine, I hope its time for me or us to shine. I was astonished when i first laid my eyes on you, I'd never saw a person who is as caring as you, A beauty that has the rare feature, Looks like im looking to a mirror that holds my future. I can't describe how perfect you are, Its like im your moon and youre my star, That shines as bright as the sun, But now that you'd left my light was done. We would have been perfect if you'd choose me, But you choose the wrong person because that is suppose to be me, Your moon has been sad all night, Thinking about you if you'd hug him tight. In every raindrop that i hear, That's where my eyes gives up the tears, I wish we could have known each other, But the time is up i need to climb my ladder. Its time for me to shine again, For i am the shining moon of him.
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Dear Anxiety
Dear Anxiety, I wish you could stop the pain youve been giving me, From day 1 to infinity, You know your voices are still in my head, Everytime i wake up and lye on my bed. I once had a panic attack when i was nine, Everytime you give me those you always crash my time, Ive been shouting and crying for help, But i hear nothing so i cryed quietly under the shelf. You know im tired of hearing voices, I wish you could stop making delusional choices, I am suffering from this anxiety, Don't make me as your show to the demon's cause i am not a variety. Placing a gun beside my head, Thinking what do i look like when i am dead, I was about to pull the trigger, But someone whispered that gave me shivers. It was my friend from the other side, But i know that airplane crashed that's where he died, But it doesn't matter anymore, He said"Don't kill yourself Because ive been there before". Now i realized i need to start walking on my own again, Before the world come to an end, Thank you for saving me my friend, You really saved me even though my life is already bent. But anxiety didn't stop from hurting me, I tried to run and escape, But he keeps chasing me. Dear Anxiety, Thank you for the pain youve been giving me, Without pain positivity wouldnt come to me, For all the people who've been suffering anxiety, Always think that he's a variety of pain.
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Give Up
Sometimes i think i should give up, So whenever i wake up this pain will stop, Blames and accuses where thrown at me, This sadness will never flee. Maybe hanging myself is a good idea, So when im gone ill leave my pain to yah, So you can feel my situation, To make you suffer from your exaggeration. I am tired, My life is already wired, And you keep punishing me like i was your child, Am i a toy to play at, So why thrown words when your mad? I am a living creature, That wants leisure, So please just shut up and accept my pain as my pleasure.
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Pathway
Darkness was my friend, He stayed until the end, Along with pain and regrets, Memories i havent forget. I was drowning from the suicidal thoughts, Finding if there are any boats, To pull me up again, To drive me away from this hell. Standing with depression, Makes me wanna lose all of my expression, Sadness will be my forever happy pill, Even though my heart and mind is ill. I am guiding myself to the light, That's why i held my soul so tight, I am near the light but the darkness keeps pulling me down to my ugly life. I shouted"I want to go to that paradise" He shouted"Your mind is not wise" I pull myself up and i release all the negativity, And replace it with positivity. The light was coming closer, But my life was going down so i tilt my head lower. The light already took me, I feel free. The light guided me to my pathway, It guides me everyday.
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Shattered
Is it me who suffered?? Whenever your heart shatters My life and your life isnt connected to each other, So why bother? If you already know you will suffer. Life is not just about challenges, Its about masses, Of pain and struggle. Your heart and mind will always be forever strong, Because your heart and your mind does not speak the wrong WORDS. Reality will give you masses of pain and regrets, So face it by yourself without using your pallet. Because our world is an art sometimes its bloody sometimes we call it beauty. Many lives were gone because of this indestructable mouth. A mouth use as a gun and the words use as a bullet. You know how much lives were shattered, And you just shrug like nothing happened. Our world has come to an end, And you were just there waving till your life is bent. ~QUOTE~ "Your love to someone will never last because death will chase you when you already faced him.So prepare yourself and love him till the end because nothing last forever my friend".
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Behind those Smiles
Laughters were made in a open hall, That's where my fake smiles started to fall. I am lost then found, In my own world where i make my own sound. Sobs and whimpers is all i hear, Instead of laughters but laughter turns into tear. A great big world full of mistakes, I made my own world so i guess ill had to take THE CONSEQUENCES. So ill just walk to the other side, Cause thats when the world divide. Your loosing someone here, And your just there staring until im drowned in my own tears. I am happy but sad, Ill just took a walk so i wont be bad. I am happy when i see the light, Thats why i need to save and fight for my life.
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Missing
Walking in the hallway, Searching for my own way, There i see your room that has decay. Standing between your door, There i see a picture ive never seen before. As i enter your room i felt shivers, The atmosphere is full of whispers. Memories went back in time, I remember when you were mine. Tears is streaming down on my face, I remember why i left this place. I walk towards our bed, I still remember when you lay on my head. There i see the picture of both us while were out there seeking adventures, I saw pain in your eyes and every pressure. The way you smile makes me the happiest girl in the world, The way i see you in pain my world become shallow. Without you i cant imagine my life, Cause your the kind of guy i want in my life. Your my half, And im your whole. Im your Sun And your my moon. But without you my life isnt a whole. ~QUOTE~ "Memories is our picture in life.Its all about remembering the past and live for the present".-LorraineX
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Our Stories
We both sit down in a quiet place, We talk about our past and past mistakes. Remembering our past is hard to remake, I forgive and forget but you said its hard to take. I forgive you for all your sins, But you keep flipping our world, That's why our problems is a clue. I cant understand why our world went black, It started when you left me and then you came back. I was deeply inlove with you, But you shattered my heart and left me a clue. I was having mix emotion, Until i realize men like you dont have any devotion. Maybe i deserve a better man than you, But you stole my heart and make me yours too. I am sorry for the mistakes that ive done, My love for you was clearly done. When you left me and seek for other woman, I was worried sick and you were there foolin. Now i realize why we need to seperate, Cause every single one of your word is fake. Thank you for the love you gave me, Goodbye for now my sweet baby. ~QUOTE~ "Not all relationships ends with a happy ending,some of them ends with farewells".-LorraineX
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Split Personality
It started when i was born in the world, Where fake people started to fall. Some people say your my "happy pill", Don't lie because i know that word.That word makes me ill Your envy mind cant protect you from harm, Cause your rubbish attitude cant handle your charm. Your pretending to be a depressed person, Do u want to know how life can stress you? It's easy to say but it so hard to do it, So why lie if you just cant do it. Blindsided is always hard to people, Acting like your nice then becoming more evil. Having a lifetime friend was so relaxing yet intimidating, Cause i know in this world there is no permanent friend who would stay for you for a lifetime. "Split Personality is something that i cant explain, so i described it in a poem so you can understand it every lane". ~QUOTE~ "Emotions is not a game,so stop playing around people's emotion and be true to yourself". -LorraineX
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My Shadow
Laying down on my bed, Thinking whats going through my head. I am lost, I am no one, I am me, Who needs care, Who needs love, Who needs affection. I hate for being me, The fact that i hate the world, I need someone to love me, Not to hurt me. I am hurt, I am broken, I am shattered like a glass whose been shattered long time ago. Time is running, I guess i have to stop at my footsteps. My shadow represents the presence of me, It represents how my life works. I have my own world, So do you. I am leaving my own world and the reality, So remember my shadow as my soul,as my presence,and as my life. I am writing this poem to let you know my soul is slowly decaying. The last words is for you to let you know i love you. You mean the world to me but as of now someone is calling me. Where the bright light appears above me, Goodbye my dear world, Goodbye my loved ones. This is my only chance to share what the world really treated me that way. I want you to see the reality. Bye for now my loved ones. See you in the next generations. "Just remember me as my shadows remembers you".
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Summer And Snow
Cold as ice, Shivers in snow Hot as lava, Sweats in outdoors. Unique ways to describe summer and snow. Ill share this cause its good to know. Summer and snow described your personality too. Hot Fury Fire when angry, Cold Blue soul when you shut people out. You ignore them like they've never existed before. Fire And ice, When you mixed it dies. So our friendship dies when you mixed it with pure white and pure black. Describe them in a very thoughtful way, Like heaven or hell, Just please do tell. Winds with Hot atmosphere, Gives us the shivers that we can't feel. Fire and thunders is all they see, When they saw the fire. IT target's at me. Looks like the demon and angel has spotted me, This the time that ill have to flee. Summer and snow please carry me, To the wonderful land that i must live free.
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Air
Swaying my body all away round, Till i see the missing piece that i found. Flashing memories through my mind, Those memories really make me blind. Heartbroken and pain is all i felt, I think my life is all a melt. Trying but dying. Magic but tragic. Whisper's but deaf. Carresed but paralyzed. The air really makes me feel calm, Cause everyone in my life doesnt come. Ill just stand here in the end of the year, Till the air take me from there to here. Cherish the moment that i have with you, Cause someday ill slowly vanish through the air. Dont cry if i am not without you, I am here protecting you. Farewells was not my favorite, So this is i saying goodbye.
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Storm
Black void is starting to form, Where in the city that has been demolished before. Winds are becoming more stronger, Now promise me when we get older? Running as fast as i could but i couldnt cause i stabbed my foot. If only these unwritten lies were release, We will still live in this world with freedom and peace. Knowledge really overcome my fear when i mix it with sincere. My sarcastic attitude couldnt handle you, So i just walk it off until i forget you. Broken promises always end up with happy life, But isnt that a lie? Now tell me why there are storms are waiting? Cause maybe our friendship wasnt so entertaining. This isnt hate nor love, Im just trying to state what the truth is. Reality is all we need, Cause in life we need to do good deeds. So wake up before storms come in, Or else they'll eat you until your thin.
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Hostile
Walking towards to the hall of pain, When you stared at my eyes it started to rain. Walking towards you make me feel weaker, So you run and run until you fall deeper. I saw a piano whose broken and sad, So i sit and started playing my dad's----song When the black cloud finally walk out, I saw you there standing with a note in your hand. I walk towards you and i snatch the letter your holdin. When i red the letter tears started to fall, I shouted"Wait!"then as time pass by your soul vanish away The little beethoven myself started to cry, Until the sun starting to rise. I was walking with pain in my heart, Then i think again should i restart? I shouldnt try if its for love, Just let her be and she'll come back to me. When the sun rises, I saw you again standing and walking at the end. You shouted"stay" Then i replied"hooray" As you come closer and closer, I see your vision getting tougher and tougher. So i ran and ran, Until i fall in a land. Then you shouted "Do not fear me little friend it is i your little hostile friend".
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Friendship
Friendship describes your friend that will leave with you at the end. They will cover up your jokes even though its lame. They will laugh with you until you run out of air. So live with them and make them as a spare. They are one of our valuables so dont leave them hanging cause they might change their mind and leave you. Friendship often ends with a sad story but with a courage and faith you will bring up the happily ever after ending.
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Fault
Standing in front of you while raining. Seeing your eyes makes me want to faint. Pain is all i see,your drowning in a deep black sea. I wish i didnt done it to you. Its my fault for not taking care of you Its my fault for not making you happy. Now i must seal this crack in my heart. Before the destruction invades and shake it again. Cause once i have one fault I feel like theres a crack in my heart ready to shake like an earthquake. You wouldnt really know someone... That one day youll wake up he's not by your side anymore. So becareful you might lose your loved ones at all. "Fault is a mistake and its like a oath to take so once you have a fault you must finish it before madness starts to fall".
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The Vicious One
My blood is boiling whenever i see her, In my eyes i see her body deceasing Anger is building up in my soul I look like a vicious serpent when anger is in my soul Jealousy is running again in my mind I wish i was not a jealous person but i cant seem to stop it. I am vicious if im jealous I feel hatred whenever she comes near to me. Cause she is my enemy. "Hatred is the second sign that you are very jealous to someone".
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Rain
Lets dance in the rain Lets make our pain go away. Lets walk til sunrise So you would not sleep in day. Rain is just like my tear. Whenever i feel down tears started to stream down. So do rains when the clouds are sad they cry. Because they want to realease that negativity that make them shy. So stop asking why?Cause i know in the end you will leave me till i die.
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Different Barriers
Were far apart,but we still keep each other's heart. Hearts were torn,but love is born Forgetting the past,would last a relationship fast. Cause you cross the line,now it means you need to go back to the time. Broken memories could make you cross your time. Advantages is really need in line.
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Song
Sang me a song while asleep, Sang me a song until i fall down too deep. Song that'll make me relaxed Song that'll forget my past. Song are my weapon to my stressed. Its my gateway that i always called heaven. Stress just make our life a messed. So listen to songs and youll forget them. Its my escape when i feel so stressed. Cause stressed made my life a messed. Songs made me remember my wonderful memories. It flutters through my mind cause songs make me happy. "To order to enjoy life you should forget all the stressed cause it will make your life a messed just listen to songs and removed the negativy around you.Always make sure your enjoying your life cause when we get older we will no longer taste the freedom as a child".
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Painful Regrets
Lovers think their wonderful desire, But they didnt know each other lie. Lies that wont let them forget, Lies that stills stuck in their head. All they feel was pain and regret, Memories that they try to forget. Was still in their head. They will never forget them and they'll will never regret them. As long as they live together, Painful Regrets wont let them bother.
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Untold Truth
Sometimes we lie,thats why some of us die. The words we hide,almost look like an ocean tide. Ocean tide that have full of problems,waving back and forth to your head.If you can tell the truth. The untold truth,will rot if you will keep it forever. The feeling we have is stupiditish whenever we lie. We just cant keep it forever,cause some of us in the end will surrender. So dont hurt yourself,cause in the end,youll hurt someone else. "Truth must be told quickly because you cant hid it forever as long as you keep it.It will rot
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Broken
Broken had me woken on my nightmares. Nightmares that turns into dangerous flares. Flares that stares,underneath your soul. Soul that turns into sillhoute. Whenever i feel broken i feel like i dont need sleep afterall. Because people who broke my heart didnt have the pride to fix it nor apologize. I feel useless for this time being. I feel like a glass,once they slip it out of their hand they'll break just like your heart. Once they are done with you they will leave you broken. They will vanish with the wind.
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Foolish
Foolish ones always make the funniest puns. They can be a fool sometimes but have a logical and poetic mind. I know the word "fool" are one of hurtful words but believe me all of us can be fool sometimes. Balony talk sounds like a damn sandwich. A sandwich that makes people language. Well sometimes we need to think before we speak because words can kill people. So watch were you talk.Think before you speak. Little shakespeare himself looks like the mini one whose giving you life. This is a poem with mixed comedy and sympathy. Showing people how other thinks it pitty. "Foolish means failed or mistaken on our work.Its okay being called foolish sometimes atleast we have the serious and logical mind".
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Flames
Beneath your eyes you will see a powerful fires. It spreads to your body till you burn. Burn till you learn. Flames are the entrence of the devil. Walk with it and youll feel a powerful heat. It will run to your body until you turn into ashes. Ashes that almost break glasses. Shattered burning hearts will never be fixed. They will be a broken glass and anyone just thinks its trash. Trash because you are heartbroken. Trash because they think you havent spoken. Flames will be Flames. They break someones heart and leave them shattered. Just luke people they leave there loved ones with shattered heart. They never help them to fixed it. So what is the purpose of living if your just keep leaving.
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Wonderful Sins
Look at those sparkling eyes and you will see those beautiful lies. Devours your soul till you fall in a hole. Sins make you lose control so do devils. We cant just stop ourselves from doing it everyday its like our daily drugs. Once you commit it you will not stop from it. Cause sins are like drugs. Sins make you live everyday no man is perfect in the world. So dont lose control or youll turn into a little devil yourself.
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The Real Face
Happy when im with you,sad when im withOUT you. Corky if he's here,but the truth is she's playing with tears. Happy and sad is all the emotion i had. Crawl underneath the mask,cause i know i have to finish my task. Smiling is my greatest weapon,but in the end sobbing and tears is messing with my heart. I dont know how to unleash the beast inside,cause the beast dont know how to flee. Making you happy is my happy pill,but making me happy is my poisonous pill. Kill if you must,Tell if you must,but changing me is not on my list. So just abandon me like the others did to me,cause i know i have full of dust in my head. So wake me up when im in bed. The next morning you will know that i am dead.
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Lesson
Lesson always give us wisdom,but seldom give us sense. Lesson always make our path clear to our problem,they help us even if you have so much stress. We always run to seek new challenge,but the further we go we feel to unnourished. Thats why the further we go,the thicker the problem we get. Lesson always come running to us when we did something wrong. But us never run to him,thats why sense and wisdom hasnt been in our head. If we just think and open up our mind,we can see,we can face the truth that we cant define. Define means nothing is in your mind. You see some people dont get my point because its hard to understand because they are not inside my head. So just follow the lesson cause it will let you free to prison. Lesson is the gteatest wisdom we will receive.So dont waste cause thats the only thing you have in mind.
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Changes
1 smile, Can make you happy 1 thought, Could make you dizzy 1 man, Can change your heart 1 heart, Could make you happy 1 argument, Can make you cry 1 tear, Can make you sad 1 word, Can hurt you So decide if you'll leave him or stare at him too. The word"Change"is a delusion through my mind. CauseIt'll hurt you twice.
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Wake me Up When Im Dead
All of us lived in the world,but lived in different country All of us have friends,but no one still loves me I'll be lying on my bed waiting the rose to get stuck in my head. So please stop judging cause i know no one loves me Waking up in the darkness makes me feel kinda dizzy So dont wake me up until someone will hit me People always talk with a thousand word,but one of your friends talks with a one word. And that is 'Dead'.They said you don't belong here. You know a thousand word wouldn't hurt me,but with a one sharp word. That'll totally kill me,i know its not the end of our world and its not the end of our soul But i think i'll be rotting in the shadow of darkness. Waving goodbye then suddenly fades away. So wake me up when im dead, Cause i'll be lying still on my bed.
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Happiness
Smile because there are so many reasons to be happy.
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Hopeless
Death doesn't count to heaven or hell, It depends if we lie or tell the truth Being hopeless is just the same with loneliness, But running out of hope,is the most contagious part of life Don't run out of hope and faith Cause god will watch you even if your tears turns into rain Positivity is the key,just pray and god will help you. Suicidal thoughts is just messing with your mind,dont mind them because they are just a stupiditish lie! Trust and courage are here to help you,so if you are running out of faith and hope they will replace them. "Don't think that you aren't good enough the important thing is your living in this world.Be happy because there are so many reasons to be happy.So if you read this that means your one of the important people to me."
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Depression
They say its fine your gonna be alright,how can you say that if you dont even know TIME People with a happy life doesnt even understand people with depression. They thought its easy to remove the pain and sadness away. Its very hard you know,depression is like a demon Once they see you walking around in the darkness,they will bite you with no reason It takes time to make the demons go away,they will leave if you will pray They are chasing me whenever i want to be happy,memories are flashing to my mind until someone shout at me and say sorry Sorry isnt enough,i can forgive you but i cant forget,That's why everytime you come near me ill swear you'll regret Its not the end of the line,its not the end of the time,its not the end of the world and most of all its not the end of our soul
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Death
Death is another word for fear, Cause when its our turn our blood turns to tear. They say 'thats okay' 'you'll be alright' Are you sure for that words you've been telling. None of your words can help me to resolve my pain because i feel like im riding the pain train. That is why death come near me death taught im always running freely. My condition is not the best as always.People always saying to me now that 'hey try comsulting to a psychologist it'll help you." But words cant help they just stare at you like a wall So dont worry if i lye on my bed,cause that's the meaning that im dead. Don't cry . Don't blame yourself. Don't blame anyone else. After all its all my fault. Just smile there so many reason to smile. Even through im not by your side but my heart will forever placed in your heart. "Have fun with your life while your still young cause when you get older death will nearly come."
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Last memory
Pictures has been stuck in my head, Hearing your voice while laying in my bed I feel paralyzed in this condition, Can someone tell me what is my mission? Shouting your name makes me feel the same No emotions has been devouring my soul, So i guess this is my last memory at all Just wanted to say your the perfect human i ever met, So please dont cry while i still lay in my bed. "Memory is the only thing that i have so please keep it cause thats the only thing that i have."
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Useless
I own you like a family but you own me like a dog. I gave you everything that i have but you give me that sarcastic tone I cherish the moment we had but you just stare at me emotionally sad But is it to much to give you everything that i have "Mystery are cluless That is why sometimes we called it Useless."
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Losing
I can sense pain in your eyes, Where knife and fake people lye's The demon is waking up, I guess no one has to stop. They may ruined your life, But atleast your not the kind of type. You may see the worst of me, So i guess you will have to flee Don't take it so far, Cause they will mend you like a jar. Demon are only friendly,when they see you not talking to me "Losing is kinda my thing cause whenever you walk away i feel like im just a spare."
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City
C.I.T.Y "A Community who have Industrious and Talented people in the world same with the youths too". City is full of industrious and talented peoples.They entertain others so they can make them happy. City is all about works and dreams,thats why our parents all ways tell us "Study hard so you can accomplish your dream". But how can you make it to the city if your not studying hard,if your not suffering,Studying is one of the biggest challenge in our journey the second is Our dreams and works.Sometimes studying is all about pain and suffer.You suffer because you want to have a bright future. You feel pain because you really need to study. All night no sleep studying because of dream. But a lot of people in the city are poor too because some of them didnt finish college because of corruption and some of them dont want to study anymore. But that is not their fault its their parents,they didnt finish college because they were married at a young age. But that doesnt mean you can stop accomplishing your dream its okay to not finish education.The important thing is you have a peaceful and simple life in a wonderful city. "City is not the only home of intelligent people it is a home of all humanity whether your poor or not". -LorraineXoXo
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Fears
F.E.A.R "Feel the Emotion inside of you Keep your self Awake and stop Running from your thoughts". Why!Do we need fear in our life is it because fear is the partner of pain.Is it because we need to seperate in every lane. Why do we need to suffer if we can just work hard,Why do you stutter when you're just talking to a rock. Every tide is a new journey means new challenge New problems,Remember in every tide you will suffer,So if you give up means you always running away from her. Why Do you have mixed emotion? Its because you feel like you fallin to a void with fear and pain And then you fade away with one last word. "Tear is equals to one drop of Fear".
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