All my changes in life have badly affected my soul... I didn’t stop killing everyday, I didn't take control, even though I could... Now I'm lying on my bed alone near the four walls... My breath, the only thing I hear, I don’t even hear someone’s voice... All parties, booze, ruined my health and hit my soul... I just need to rest, I didn't lose heart... I just need to rest, I did not lose heart... All the pain and sadness already hurts my soul... There is still evil in me... The fact that I was fearless did nothin' for me... Death means nothing an' doesn’t scare me... Everyone is still afraid of me... It makes me even more withdrawn an' sad... I'm broken an' lost the habit of lovin'... Do you still hate me? This time please ain't lie to me... Please understand me right, I'm broken in myself, The devil took all my health, I know you are lyin' well, Don't tell me lyin' spells... I'm still spending money on expensive things, I feel better when there is no aggressive bitch, I still go to work, and get the money that she brings, I'm focused on work, no more drinkin' bouts 'n' parties, I've no more drugs an' no problems, I left my gang... Hah... -Cvld Blvvded,... Do you really have nothing to do?... Did you forget how fun it was?... Your beast inside you is just tired... WIMP... HAHA... Locked in a room in four walls without exit, Everyone around me calls me an addict, Here I live, I am real, I myself chose this path and I pay for it, I lose all the energy I should have consumed, but now the devil absorbs it, I myself chose this path, now I'm already "retired"... I ain't ask for help and regrets, I just say this so that y'all ain't tell me that I am out of date... I knew what I was goin' for, an' knew my fate... I knew that I could not live long luxuriously and without emptiness in my soul, I knew that time would take everythin' from me... I knew that I could not live long luxuriously and without emptiness in my soul, Knew that time would take everythin' from me... I see a silhouette walkin' 'round the room next to me... I know that this is schizophrenia an' don't pay attention to it... Someone makes incisions on my wrist, blood flows downstream, but I ain't feel anythin'... MY BLOOD FLOWS IN LITERS... Feeling like someone would kill me and throw my corpse into the river... My soul ain't calm... I already fell into the soul... What did these bitches give me? I wanted to grow, I'm just at ease, I ain't miss... I'm even tired of bliss... I've found peace... I got dozens of kisses... I'm over it... My soul ain't calm... I already fell into the soul...