It was the end...
It was in broad daylight..
I was shivering with fear..
I was scared of her..
Her reaction, her anger, her bitterness..
I could not knock..
I could not go in..
I was not ready..
I think i would have never ever be ready..
But it was today or never..
It was the opportunity to be seized..
I was brave while being a coward too..
Ever since i feel empty..
Finally empty..
Closure maybe..
But no anger,no longing,no hoping..
Nothing...
Just the end of something that never existed..
I am sad..
I am in grief..
I am mourning..
The death of Ru.h..
That's what she used to call me..
I know now where i get the bitterness from..
What has been consuming me..
This will pass with time too..
This new wound..
This final blow..
It was the end of something that never existed..
Which i fantasized a lot..
We never connected..
I was i & she was she..
Doing a kind deed & nothing else..
Today, i was in the office where it all started..
Today, i was in the office where it all ended..
I am sad if that can define what i am feeling..
It was for the best..
We have to bid goodbye sooner or later..
People are temporary,feelings are not...
Sadly...
This was the end..
The end of us..
Goodbye..
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