The days u spent lying on ur bed... Starring at the ceiling... Fading away...no regards of what would be the consequences... was that the solution? Did everything go away?! Did u feel good?! Did that make u feel good? Answer.. Or... You just got drowned in deeper and deeper .. U know that every single time u lock ur self in ur room is a whole new episode of u getting down and down with ur own thoughts... U built up a whole castle of darkness and bad thoughts, depression, anxiety, insomnia,and other shit.. U thought this was better for u ... Guess wot ?! It didn't get u out ..it just got u down deeper in that black hole u started long ago.. I know... Ppl got u feel worthless, non wanted ,untalented, shitty,a bitch,ugly,fat,have no self-value... U got the thought inside u and those thoughts kept growing ... But no one knew... that u were hurting inside...u kept that smile over ur face acting it all alright.. Is that so ...look who is crying inside her dark room ,covering her mouth to not be heard ...how can u accept that ... Isn't that hard for ur soul ,isn't that pounding ur heart and breaking it.. Like a rocking ball crashing a wall.. U loved ... But never been loved back... Got hurt ..always the one who gets hurt ..why?! Cuz of ur kindness and sweetness, loyalty, and care to ppl who don't deserve ..was that ur fault?!.. The only wrong u did was ..being u ..is that a fault ?! No one understands.. U wanna fix with the moulde ...putting makeup, laughing out loud,talking to guys...wanna ask u ?! Is that really u...is that really what u wanna be..is that what u want ppl to see ...u want ppl to notice u by that...Really?! ...just question ur self...Is that me?!.. U have been beaten up by so many ppl physically, emotionally, in everyway they could; they lowered ur value ...why? Cuz u let them do that..how?! U changed ur self to someone u are not..u gave them the chance.. Faking a smile always work ... Being silly,crazy,ludicrous.. Works ,right?.. Why hiding that u are in pain.. Destroying urself..u dont want ur love ones to feel guilty ..for god sake they turned u to something u are not ... does that makes u feel good not to show them they hurt u so bad?.. Are u happy of the prsn u became now..are u happy with the pain growing inside..is that what u want.. Stop acting u r okay ... Stop putting that act of "am tough" when u r never brave enough... Ur walls are shuttering down.. I know u hate to see the eye of Pity .. But hey, there are some ppl out there for u ...never judge u .. Cuz u know that, after every dark night there is always a bright light ... Open ur eyes ,live every emotions u have ...feel everything there is to feel..never be afraid to show ur intention to anyone ..be strong.. Get ur self up.. Be u no matter what.. Cuz the only prsn that can help is called "YOU"❤ Advise.. Plz watch ur words before talking..cuz u don't really know the prsn and what they are feeling like..or the pain they are going through..despite the happy face there might be a broken soul..be good to ppl around u ..never lower of their values ..every prsn is dealing with their own shit...that they can't admit.