Letter to my insecurities
Hi.
Well...
Here is a letter for you.
Dear insecurities, dear fears, dear complex, dear anxiety.
I want you to know something.
When I see myself in a mirror, when I eat, when I shower, when I dress up... When I live you are here.
<< You're too fat>>
<< You're too short >>
<< Your clothes don't even fit you well>>
<< You are ugly >>
<< Your eyeliner isn't even symmetrical>>
<< She's never gonna like you back, don't even try >>
Even when I manage to forget you for a little while, you're never really far from me. You watch me, from a reasonable distance, and you wait.
You wait for the perfect moment, the moment when I will be stressed out, the moment when I will be a bit sad, the perfect moment to come again and torment me.
And when you find this moment, you jump out from nowhere, you mess up with my mind, you fill my thoughts of your stupid ideas and then you leave me.
<< Look at the others. They do much better than you will ever be able to do>>
Broken.
It takes a while to fix the damage you caused.
But I do it.
Why ?
Because I want you to know that I will never, ever let you win once again.
And you know who's gonna win ? Me.
How ?
I will fight back.
I will show you that you have no rights to break me with your horrible words.
It's been too long.
Such a precious time I wasted.
But the day has come.
I want to be proud of myself.
And for that, I will get rid of you, no matter what, I will erase you from my mind.
Just wait.
And you'll see.
2020-10-23 18:18:50
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