I KILLED MYSELF IN MY DREAM
Huh, where am I?
How am I still alive?
I felt like I killed myself,
Finished off life, outdid death,
Fragile on the outside, pathetic on the inside,
Outside with a knife, but inside lost and blind,
I want to die because of all the lies hidden behind a smile,
I'll do everything so that my body's empty of blood and remains dry,
PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP YOUR MOUTH,
Kicking your body ON THE FLOOR LIKE A BALL,
My blade is poisonous, NOW YOU'RE DOWN,
Swinging, I make a cut across, LEAVING YOUR BODY TO FILL A PUDDLE,
FUCK,
THIS IS ALREADY PERSONAL,
OPENING YOUR BELLY, PULLING OUT A KIDNEY I'M A CANNIBAL,
SADISM MERGED WITH RESENTMENT THAT I CAN'T LET GO,
ALL MY ACTIONS ARE NOT MY FAULT,
ALL MY ACTIONS, THEY AIN'T MY FAULT
I would kill myself not to return to the real world,
'Cause I cannot stand the pain, it hurts,
Every day I go through it only gets worse,
Maybe my life's not that worth,
Once I get hit over time I get more,
I bleed beaten on the floor,
Love and hugs are simple bait,
THEN THERE WILL BE TORTURE, AND YOU'LL FIND YOURSELF IN A LOCKED CAGE
HOW AM I STILL ALIVE?
I FELT LIKE I KILLED MYSELF,
You're just hypocritical but not kind,
It cuts my ears when you cut my skin and at the same time laugh,
I wanna stop drowning in nothingness I don't wanna die at all,
All your words don't mean a fucking thing, I'm not gonna cry, it's flawed,
I WILL KNOCK YOU OFF YOUR FEET AND THEN WILL LOOK DOWN AT YOU,
I WILL KILL YOU WITHOUT BATTING AN EYE IF I HAVE TO
Everyone lost my trust when some of my so-called friends just betrayed me,
All my past has turned to dust, I've been thinking 'bout isolating myself lately,
If I step on the same rake again, for my heart it will be deadly,
I am not aggressive yet, I enjoy the anticipation, AT THE MOMENT I AM PASSIVE,
AT THE MOMENT I AM PASSIVE
HUHHHH...
UMM...
I KILLED MYSELF IN MY DREAM...
2021-06-29 15:05:14
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