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Water
I knew it was time
Because when isn't it time to die
So as I entered the water
With cement tied to my waist
I jumped into the lake
And immediately sank
When it became 7:58
It was almost to late
By 8:06
I couldn't have been fixed
My lungs filled
My arms felt like squids
Chest was pumping asking
For my airway
To drain
But it was filled up to my brain
At the bottom
Of the lake
Where I had sank
And will always lay
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Tired
I love myself
I really do but....
I am so meant my drained
At 10 I have been through more things
Then some of you ever will
I am constantly thinking
Overthinking
But no matter what there
Is always one person to hype me up
He's always there tell me how
Strong
Smart
Pretty
Beautiful
And amazing I am
And that helps me so much
But personally I have never felt that way
At 3:00am I sit in my room
Staring into a blank space
Thinking about all my flaws
Or maybe how it's all a mistake
Or maybe i made the mistake
Hold on
Hear me out
I'm the mistake
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Music
Good morning
Get up
I know you don't want to
But I don't give a fuck
Hi hello
It's me and no I won't go
I am the one
Who will best you down
But I am so proud
I will carry you around
Because you always come back to me
To be honest, that makes me happy
I am the music in your ears
I am the reason you have your tears
I have so many personality
You haven't even seen
Yet again you always come back to me
Because I can make YOU happy
You know just like
You make me
But I will make you sad
I will tear you down
Further beyond land
Haha, it will never end
I might give you bad thought
Bad thoughts in your head
Which will give you bad action
To which you will attend
But hey it's not my fault
I am not your peer
I am just the little innocence
Innocence in your ear
At first you may think it's fun
Then you'll get down
You'll always have a frown
Good luck buddy
But before I go
I will say one thing
One thing to you
Because your so blue
You'll be okay
Just look around
Your not the only one
I make frown
But I make then so happy
You see
So they don't see the fact
That I am just here to be a "Little friend"
To lure them in
Get them to go down the slope
Then get back up
Just to do it all over again
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NO!
NO!
Please don't go
NO!
Don't leave me here alone
You know I can't function without you
So why would you do something
That would leave me here alone
Even if you never meant to
NO!
Don't say "bye"
NO!
Please say something by nine
As you slowly faded
You made me believe
I was hated
I felt like you were going to do it
NO!
You said "bye"
NO!
You walked out of my life
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My Fault
I was two
Couldn't tie my own shoes
But hey
At least there's no way I'd be due
But there was no crew
He had no clue
What he would do
At least the time kinda flew
This is all new
And this is what every family may do
Plus the was I was dressed
No clue
Maybe a pink gown
Probably with a crown
So he took me down
As I tried not to frown
As he pulled my pants
All the way down
He got the chance
He'd never let up now
Him and I
Thought we were fine
But just you remember
I was only two and the time
(True story)
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Time
Around 3:09 in the morning
He went and found another wife
All because he was horny
At 3:09 in the morning
She took her life
All because he was horny
At 3:09 in the morning
Their kids woke up
And realized their whole lives were dumped
All because he was fuckin horny
Fuck 3:09 in the morning
And double fuck being horny
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The count
1 2 ... And your time is due
3 4 ... Should've done it before
5 6 ... Give your thigh a slit
7 8 ... Gonna say I ate
9 10 ... Never wanna wake again
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Lonely
You didn't get to know me
I'm so lonely
And if you ever tried to get to know me
I'd still be lonely
Cuz you broke my heart
And I fell down
You said you'd pick me up
But yet you pushed me down
You knew I was in my
Darkest realm
But it doesn't really matter
Cuz I'm nothing to you now
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Tight
I pulled it tighter
With the feeling getting higher
The want to die grew even larger
I know I can't take it much longer
My stress made me heavier
While my head became louder
For some people, days grew shorter
But mine only grew longer
People started to get happier
Yet I grew sadder
Their ladder became shorter
Mine only grew longer
Then everything got much better
Haha Just kidding
Your gonna become even sadder
Then you were before this whole matter
Remember once your at the top
It will always drop
And this may sound bizarre
But it will drop past your last bar
So not hold on tight
I'll try to drag you toward the light
But you'll never stop
Stop this fight that's so tight
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Fate
As I was walking down the lane
I started to contemplate
What if it was to late
Or maybe it was just fate
Am I to late
For all this hate
Yet people just state
To What they can't relate
I'm ready to take my leap of fate
Because to be honest
I can't tell you the last
The last time I ate
All things happen for a reason
And this is just my treason
So what's the lesson
Therefore maybe I'll listen
Everybody thinks people die for a reason
But if you ask me
People die because
Because they DON'T have a reason
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Teacher
Tears roll down her face
So much so she could fill up a lake
Her hoods up
And eyes are down
She wants to explode
But without making a sound
She looks around
No one cares
She looks back down
To all the scars that are there
Though she had a doubt
Someone's looks and shouts
“ Miss teacher
Look what she did to her arm
Up, down
Side to side"
She starts to cry even more
“Attention whore”
Some call out
Others just sit around
The teacher stares at her and frowns
She looks disappointed
Even more so now
She wonder what’s gonna happen now
Instead of taking her out
Or asking about
The teacher goes back to the board
Without making a sound
Yet once again
All is forgotten about
No one cares
So what’s there to talk about
This is what she learned
That this is what I deserve
I deserve what’s yet to come
And what’s already here
Now if you ask me
No one should believe
Believe that they haven’t fought
Because they ought
What I believe
Is that everyone one is struggling
Just trying to hold on
But no one’s pulling up
They are just stuck
Stuck waiting for help
But it’s the people
The people who are pulling up
Helping others get unstuck
Yet again those people
Are bearing their own weight
And each day
Others add on
Put more and more things
Things are their chest
That it pushes down their own
Suppressing the reality
That they are smart enough to get unstuck
But that doesn't mean their okay
It just means one thing
That they can hid it
Hid the fact that they have problems
Real problems that need to be fixed
They are unhinged
And the missing puzzle pieces
That door, is far out
So far down within
But yet it’s so thick
Moral of all of this
Is that any and everyone can be hurting
But the teachers just move on
Like it’s any other day
We kids may be giving you signs
Or we may not
But if we are, and the next day were gone
Don’t just say oops sorry son
If you notice somethings wrong
Guess what’s not wrong
You approaching us
Telling us to talk
Or simply just giving us a hug
Any source of love
We will hold on
It may not seem like a lot
But the little things matter
More than one could encounter
Now in a week
This whole speech won’t matter
Because if you ask anyone in 5th grader or higher
They’ll just say their fine
And teachers will overlook the fact
The fact that they just lied straight to your face
Here’s the sad part
You believed it
She may have been in 6th grade or any other
But now she’s 6 feet under
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