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Catastrophe

Now its been a month Since a became twenty one And im still trying to change my life Pain has not gone War in my head has just begun. All the regrets are still alive. Im standing on place, but i just want to run Somewhere I need to change everything. I never needed a space, i just want to be loved Cared And not to be scary thing. Out there is a sun, but i just need my mum, To tell her my story She is mad at me , because i called her a dumb Honey, im so sorry... Im listening - she said I answered - no i cant Because im too scared To show up who really i am I was dating an older man With him a had my first sex I wrote poem about wishing him was dead But i burnt it, So words stayed unsaid. Now im 21 Trying to have more fun My life has just begun I want to do things that are undone. He is almost 30 Cant believe i was sleeping with him Cause of his religion, he cant be with me. Now he is with his wife Trying to live a happy life With pretending being perfect. He is ignoring my soul Because his priest told him so. Was i just your sex object? Im 21, wild and free Trying to find some clues and keys Im ready to swim in the sea With a boy who is falling on my knees. Im 21 I had played with gun After i became a sinner I was 19 When i slept with that guy I started wishing to be a skinner I was in love When the war has begun In love i was just a begginer. I am not the only one Who has gone too far And wished to became a killer.

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Прошу не уходи , Ты луч ,что красит день всех Как тяжело так просто отпустить , Твой свет от шоколад творений Ты весела всегда ,поддержишь если грустно Всем здесь стала важна И в тоже время согреешь теплотою гнусно На аве так няшна с котейками мимишна , С улыбкою ясна й не будет так прывична ! Мне грустно без тебя , хорошая зайчуга !! Я ж буду так скучать за твоими стишками , Что даришь всем сполна С любовью й ораматом тепловой ласки :) Оть доброты твоей Сб стал радостью излучен :) Ведь многим принесла Частичку доброты с улыбочкой уюта лучик 🌹 (( 🍫✨🌹💕)) P.s: Посвященно Дозе с любовью от Морки 💕🍫))) ( Одна и единственная на Сб Шоко-котейка ,что поднимает настроение другим своим позитивным настроением 🍫💕)) https://www.surgebook.com/alievaelmira/blog/ejk3a46

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I Saw a Dream

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I saw a dream, and there were you, And there was coldness in your eyes. I wonder what a kind of true Made you become as cold as ice. And later I looked back to get a sense This empty glance was hellish call of past. It used to be a high and strong defense Against the world, the pain and me at last. You looked at me, and peering in your soul, I felt so lonely, as something vital died. And that is what I fear most of all - That nothing gentle will remain inside. Inside of you. Inside of me as well. And nothing will be said to farewell.

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