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Love Match
2020-12-08 21:33:50
It's always Jesus
Новини, Цікаве, Потрібна допомога
Does validation have a time limit? Those were the words uttered to me. I tried to rock the heels but the rock on my pavement rocked my face, Tried to sniff the drugs but the cops sniffed the drugs on me, I tried to watch the R-rated movies but my dad caught me unluckily, With a straight dead on "grounded" I tried boyfriends but they called me ugly, I tried girlfriend but I couldn't keep up with the Versace, Gucci and whatever else mattered to them, I guess I figured I can finally try me, But my sea suddenly had a tempest, Suddenly everything was catching up with me, I became the prey, Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts were my predators , I now was in the jungle maximizing on theories such as" survival for the fitest and by all means " First came th pills and portions, Then came the injections it hurt so much, I didn't have anyone I was drowning in zero gravity, In a bottomless sea, The spiral of pain had no end, From life's moments suddenly to life's momentum, I found a pivotal change, I found something great, God! I didn't need validation, now, He did not give me a time limit, He was always there from the beginning, He saw my story as he was the author, He didn't see me as waste rather as beloved, He saw my scars but still he called them stars, He saw the hurt, the darkness, the rejection and the pain lodging in me, Inspite of it all he said I was priceless, That no jewel or mineral worth to man, could hold a torch to me. There and then, I snapped out of the cage, I finally mustered courage and went on one knee and said... "You know am a sinner lord. I hate sin yet I still leave in it. I've actually built a house in it. Because faith is something am not accustomed too. Trusting other people is something I don't like to do. I give you everything lord. If you have me I will still come " It became abnormal for it to be normal, but he made it all good, With due time. I don't know what willing happen , I don't know what my compass will point to, but God will be my bearing, If it's man, validation always has a time limit like a credit card, If it's God you never have to feel like you need validation. Because He knew you before you discovered him, Yet He still called, calls and awaits you in His sanctuary
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