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It's okay, just a little bit more. I thought as I run down the hallway eager to reach my destination. Obviously, running isn't the thing for me. I slowed down as a familiar wall came to my vision and sat in the corner panting. I looked around making sure not a single soul was around. Nobody is supposed to see this.
Should I do this? I've been clean for 2 months now, but this won't ruin it... right? It's only a pill.
I sighed and took out the pill. My dirty secret. The secret I carefully hid before they forced me to go to THAT place. I grimaced as I remembered the horrible memories I went through there. How they put that powder in my food just to get me fatter. I chuckled bitterly, getting fat was far the opposite from what I was trying to do. It was absolutely the most horrible experience I've went through so far that if not ever.
I glared down at the pill debating whether I should take it or just forget about the whole thing. If I took it, it wouldn't matter, right? It will only surpass my hunger for a while, it's not like I'm making myself vomit. I would still be clean.
"I would still be clean" I whispered, hoping to convince myself.
I felt my eyes watering as I stared at the pill. I'll be skinny. If I took it, I might finally become pretty... and I'll be happy then, right? Plus, it's not like anyone would care. They took me to THAT place without even batting an eyelash. They didn't want to take responsibility for me. She didn't want to take responsibility for me.
'Take it! Or do you want to stay fat? Ugly?' A voice rang in my head. 'Nobody needs to know about this', It said. 'You'll take it, then act as if nothing happened.'
That's right, I can just take it and nobody will know about it. As if it never happened. I took a deep breathe as I brought my shaky hands closer to my mouth. I'll be pretty...
"What are you doing?" I froze.