Price
Mirror
Mirror
"Here you are again !!!!" she said while 
Taking a deep look at  her eyes 

Why are you doing this for yourself ?!
"I’m fine ,I’m doing great " I said 
"No you’re not " she replied "aren’t you gonna take off that mask you keep wearing everyday " 
" He is my protector  " I answered 
"You’re sinking and this time 
Nobody is there for you 
Nobody feels you or even knows what’s wrong with you , don’t say it’s just another black day 
You’ve been telling me that for months you keep lying to yourself and family ,friends 
Live your life it’s easy, be happy try to enjoy  " she said 

"It’s easy said then done I can’t 
I’m struggling  with everything and everyone ,family?! those who destroyed my life and broke my dreams ,friends ! You are the only one I’ve got , I mean  who would love to have a depressed girl as a friend  ?!!!no one I guess 
and it’s not that I don’t want to be happy 
It’s a despite , how hard I try I can’t bring myself to be happy 
And Trying makes me feel even worst because I know the results in advance ,pushing my self to do things became so painful and all what I get is sadness  , my life became the worst nightmare ever and living it everyday it’s just not fair 
Maybe I deserve a break from this mess 
 maybe it’s just a matter of time right ?! 
I don’t know why I’m like this 
Why all what I see is gray ?! 
Why my life became a dark room with no door ?! Why I’m afraid of the world  of their reactions, afraid of their words ?!! Afraid to be judged for something I can’t control ... 
Do you think I like watching  myself living like that , I’m a mess as they said  ?! 
They influenced me to  create  this character and they can make an end for it ... 
I’m sorry for seeing me broken  everyday ,for showing you my hidden pain  for you ... I’m really sorry and thank you for being here with me ,for crying when I cry, and laughing when I laugh ..... " 
She cleaned her face  and putted a fake  smile on it ,and went out jut like that leaving an empty  dark mirror behind her  .....
yes a dark mirror
 

 


 
© Samia Sam,
книга «Eccedentesiast».
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