Maria Zoe

2020-06-18 01:37:50

Stuff

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I am not good I am bored Don't tell me to go out i won't I don't like the outside world I am not interested in doing anything I just want to sleep You know.. I did fall in love several times but they were online Just on of them wan actually real but of course we were online also but he was in my city so at least i can say it was true i guess I saw him once in the daylight and several times when i was walking with friends at night When i saw him that day we were alone and i was busy but we talked for seconds and drift apart I don't know but i didn't feel like i want to stay and leave my exam, my thoughts was 'oh man why is he here is my luck working? But how can i leave him without being rude?' I was in college and we all have this imagination about being in love that you can create your own image about the one you are in love with Like being in a bubble, and when we break up it was like that safe bubble blow up and start thinking 'i want my safety back ' we break up multiple times befor its blowing After that one i just looked to people with an eye that says ge is beautiful but i don't like dating him Several days ago i knew about the aromantic flag and how they don't feel attracted to other people I don't know if what happened to me was because I'm an aro person or just because i don't have the bubble and don't think about love the same way Yesterday some girl from Egypt did kill herself because no one understands her and her sexuality and being a free woman and playing a role in this matter Even though she flew to Canada to be herself Few people pray for God's mercy everywhere in middle east and they all connecting sexuality matters with the story of loutt 'it's an Arabic name so i don't know how to write it ' the prophet of God or the messenger of god That they focused on the sexuality but not the other bad things i think because they demanded to f*** his guests and so they were so angry about it I don't know if god did confirm this matter or not but i don't think he meant it that way i have to search about that I think if i told them about me i would be laughed at