alphafemale_

2018-10-07 18:21:42

Breathing.

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Being popular has it's perks but it wasn't what matters at all. Being 'perfect' in other's eyes was never a thing that I liked. I'm the girl with the 'perfect life'. I was the one who never got sad. But in reality, it was actually the other way around. My life was far from perfect. It was complicated, sad, depressing. Maybe bittersweet but, for short, it's messed up. I fake smiles and walk amongst the humans as some sort of alien. I fit in perfectly but I was just a mask. I always wanted for everyone to be happy but everytime I tried, I end up hurting someone either way. I guess nothing happens the way you want. When I was young, I used to believe life's all butterflies and rainbows. I was living my life in ease and happiness, I never saw the icebergs coming my way. The iceberg that sunk me down and made my life miserable. As I grew older, I learnt that there'll also be deaths and rain too. Little. But somehow, those rains turned into storms and gradually into hurricanes - into disasters which destroyed my soul, my happiness, my entire life. I never thought that I would someday wish I was dead. I never knew how to swim but I dived in fearlessly into the deep, rough sea. I was drowning. I was getting out of breath. I was out of hope. But somehow I kept breathing. I'm breathing.