Princess Nice

2021-05-06 16:06:02

Pain

Потрібна допомога, Питання, Особисте

(18+) The tears have shed quietly hoping the pain goes away. The moments I have wished I was just okay . All the painful moments coming back and finishing me from inside The only place I can write about my pain Dear heart I don't want to trouble you but I hope you will continue being strong for me I hope you will take in the pain and allow it pass by without holding on To the time I have spent sleepless night wishing I be well To the moments have felt all helpless Broke and broken at the same time but holding on to the God's of the land They say bloom gracefully but I can't even find a place in my body that allows me to bloom. Sometimes I feel like I don't have to live no more to experience the pain of this life but I look back to my family and friends who are looking up to me and I find the courage to wake up in the morning and just do life. I have lost the motivation to keep fighting I have lost the motivation of life I have lost the motivation to even apply for those jobs I have lost motivation to even do the life itself. Tonight my heart is heavy, heavy not because of being broken but because I am angry at life, at people, at thjnag ,at situations. Angry why me , and all the fuck is going on. I don't even know the reason to fight another day coz I am broken inside . I keep holding on but my heart is not taking it. I wish I can have someone hold me and just say uta well but with everything I going through u don't even feel like talking to anyone or sharing whatever the heck is going on with my life . I rather write than share it coz in writing no one will judge me,no one will tell me to be strong coz this ahit is outdated . I am so tired with everything and I seriously need some help which I don't know where it will come from . I try to be strong but I am loosing it